Well, here it is. The end of the longest accident story ever.
I got my frazzled self home, made a cup of tea. No, it was a mug. A mug of tea. I went to my room, turned on the AC, (it was too hot for tea but I really needed some, so on the AC went – and after all, I deserved it!). I got on my bed and opened my Bible to the day’s reading.
Now I’m not sure how effectively I communicated how frustrated I was during this entire process. And feeling justified in my frustration because after all, everyone knows how crazy taxi drivers are. And the police! Well, there was just one that made me angry. But he made me more annoyed than one man should have the ability to do.
Back to my Bible reading. September 11. Psalm 55.
God understood how I was feeling. Check this out. The whole chapter was about me. My paraphrase: Listen to my prayer, answer me. I am distraught at the voice of the
police enemy. They bring suffering on me. Oh, that I had the wings of a dove I would fly away and be at rest. I would flee far away and stay in the desert (Ok, the desert part was just kind of funny). Confuse the wicked. I see strife in the city. Destructive forces are at work there. Threats and lies never leave its streets. But I call to God and the Lord saves me. I cry in distress and he hears my voice. (God, it’s NOT my fault! Can’t you do something about these taxi drivers?) Cast your cares on the Lord – he will sustain you. You God will bring down the wicked!
I kid you not. That was my scheduled Psalm for September 11. I was feeling pretty good about this. God used His Word to speak to me, to encourage me. He knew exactly how I was feeling. He’s good like that.
I moved on to the Old Testament reading for the day, wondering what other good news about being justified was awaiting me. Isaiah 8 & 9.
I’m reading along, sipping my Earl Grey and this is what jumps off the page.
“The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of the shadow of death a light has dawned. You have enlarged the nation and increased their joy; they rejoice before you as a people rejoice at the harvest.” Isaiah 9:2,3
There are places on this earth where people are walking in darkness. Niger is one of those places. That’s why we’re here. To expose them to the light. So many are living in the shadow of death and don’t even know it. I’ve read these verses before. Even have them underlined in my Bible. But golly did they speak to me in a new way this time. In light of my day. In light of my attitude. In light of me feeling all high and mighty and justified. I am supposed to be that light. ME. Why in the world would I expect any of the people I dealt with today to behave any differently than they did? Are they believers? No. Do they have THE light? No. As the Bible clearly tells us, they CAN’T understand the things of God unless the Holy Spirit reveals stuff to them. And it says in 2 Corinthians 4:4 “The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers so that they cannot see the LIGHT of the Gospel of the glory of Christ. Oh my.
I was supposed to be that light today. The great light that Isaiah 9 talks about. Now I didn’t cuss anybody out. But not losing my head and being a light are two very different things. My pride could rise up and try and tell me how well I handled myself considering the frustrations and injustices. After all…. But was I a light? Did I shine? I think not. I just felt sorry for myself.
I know good and well that God did not cause this fender bender so I would hear him or so He could teach me something. He speaks to us today through His Word and through the Holy Spirit. And today, he spoke clearly to me through His Word. And what’s more, long ago my God knew what my day would be like on September 11, 2014. He knew that I’d be sitting on my bed with the AC on, drinking a hot
cup mug of Earl Grey and casting my cares on Him. He knew that I’d need comforting. He also knew that I needed some correcting. I could almost see Him up in heaven looking down at me, mug of tea in hand, smiling, as He gently said, “Yes, cast your cares on me. I’ll be there for you. But don’t forget – YOU are the light to the people walking around in the dark. Now act like it. And remember, I love you.”